OHPF Day 7

A day removed and looking ahead – to the agenda for the year, coordinating travel plans, planning for projects and incorporating the tasks of the fellowship into everyday life. Enduring loyalty to the practice of spontaneity is challenged as the logistics of living in multiple locations, managing several businesses and the juggling act of parenthood add to the complexity of daily life. Reflecting back on the tenets of my profession, the integration of structure and function looms as a friendly shadow on the walls of my schedule.

I value the ability and willingness to say yes to last-minute events, join in on an unexpected adventure and practice flexibility in embracing life’s unfolding. With ever increasing urgency, I am learning that baseline establishment of structure can grant a greater sense of security with patterns of predictability that open space for moments of freedom. Seeing the year laid out with trips and tasks makes clearer the boundaries required for successful completion. Though I like to think, and often attempt, to do everything, I am accepting the trade-offs that accompany a quest for excellence.

The rejection of an activity is at times voluntary and at others imposed. With a heavy dose of humility, I have accepted limitations, grateful to find them accompanied by an enduring sense of relief, outlasting the initial disappointment. Reflecting my own tendencies, my oldest son struggles with the tasks of homework, particularly a project spanning the course of weeks or months. Though gifted with ample ability, he is challenged by the difficult duo of procrastination and alluring alternate activities. We have struggled for years to find a clear path forward, seeking to nurture self-discipline and find intrinsic motivation but repeatedly hitting barriers of frustration.